Hi World~
Been awhile since i posted anything so... yay~
really guess it's just been awhile since i got stuck in status quo

today i shall talk a little more on my live with Jesus
i really don't know how many times i've heard this verse
"He must become greater, i must become less."
but no matter how hard i try i'm still not there yet
and i guess that really the main issue is not really about what i can do
but rather what God can do,
because you see, no matter how hard we as humans may try
we can never do enough to deserve his love,
nothing we can give to exchange or "buy" it

BUT it is by his grace that we really can.
Just like what was said in Crazy Love by Francis Chan
"i need God to help me love God"
and really, what it means is
you need to surrender, you need to let him be the controller

if at this point you're still going on like
"sure go ahead father, but don't touch this or that"
then that's really besides the point right?

I used to ask myself, how can i live life to fullest?
How can i be the impact that i wish to see?
That when i finally leave this world, my epitaph would show my contribution
would show that Jesus is alive in meThen i would go on and think,
great people, to do great things, they would need great purpose
they would need that drive, that force
To me, i feel that i lived the average life,
in fact i get bored really quickly
i will start doing things and get tired and jump to the next best thing
the cycle just goes and goes, nothing becomes great
so, what can i do?

As a Christian, i would really say that God has changed my life in many ways,
even though from now till then, i wouldn't say that i have truly loved him to my all
i haven't really put him first in my life, i never really dedicate my time for him,
i have turned my back on him too many times
i have never truly loved
but, if you think about it again, if loving someone so beautiful can be hard,
isn't loving a person imperfect much harder?
and truthfully speaking, hearing people say that
"life of a Christian is like a marathon"
i think it's really not that simple,
it's more like a hike in my opinion
constantly climbing and not giving up, and if it wasn't hard enough,
you meet obstacles, new obstacles all the time,
you have to always keep your guard up, otherwise anything could kill you

when living the life of a Christian, normal standards would not do
a normal life would not do, but what can a normal person do then?
He needs to start letting the Greater Creator in
and it isn't a one time deal, it's a journey
this here is my little rant on life,
and it's getting a little long but still, to anyone reading the blog
i hope to continue writing, to bring to people the experiences that i have
so that i can at least help in my little way to anyone who may seek it
and i know that it may not be much, but i believe that small things can really go a long way
and i know that i may have some Christian stuff here, but to the non-believers
i believe that there are still things for you here if you just look at the right places :)
Thanks for reading :)

Have a nice day :) God Bless<3