Hi World~
Been awhile since i posted anything so... yay~
really guess it's just been awhile since i got stuck in status quo

today i shall talk a little more on my live with Jesus
i really don't know how many times i've heard this verse
"He must become greater, i must become less."
but no matter how hard i try i'm still not there yet
and i guess that really the main issue is not really about what i can do
but rather what God can do,
because you see, no matter how hard we as humans may try
we can never do enough to deserve his love,
nothing we can give to exchange or "buy" it

BUT it is by his grace that we really can.
Just like what was said in Crazy Love by Francis Chan
"i need God to help me love God"
and really, what it means is
you need to surrender, you need to let him be the controller

if at this point you're still going on like
"sure go ahead father, but don't touch this or that"
then that's really besides the point right?

I used to ask myself, how can i live life to fullest?
How can i be the impact that i wish to see?
That when i finally leave this world, my epitaph would show my contribution
would show that Jesus is alive in meThen i would go on and think,
great people, to do great things, they would need great purpose
they would need that drive, that force
To me, i feel that i lived the average life,
in fact i get bored really quickly
i will start doing things and get tired and jump to the next best thing
the cycle just goes and goes, nothing becomes great
so, what can i do?

As a Christian, i would really say that God has changed my life in many ways,
even though from now till then, i wouldn't say that i have truly loved him to my all
i haven't really put him first in my life, i never really dedicate my time for him,
i have turned my back on him too many times
i have never truly loved
but, if you think about it again, if loving someone so beautiful can be hard,
isn't loving a person imperfect much harder?
and truthfully speaking, hearing people say that
"life of a Christian is like a marathon"
i think it's really not that simple,
it's more like a hike in my opinion
constantly climbing and not giving up, and if it wasn't hard enough,
you meet obstacles, new obstacles all the time,
you have to always keep your guard up, otherwise anything could kill you

when living the life of a Christian, normal standards would not do
a normal life would not do, but what can a normal person do then?
He needs to start letting the Greater Creator in
and it isn't a one time deal, it's a journey
this here is my little rant on life,
and it's getting a little long but still, to anyone reading the blog
i hope to continue writing, to bring to people the experiences that i have
so that i can at least help in my little way to anyone who may seek it
and i know that it may not be much, but i believe that small things can really go a long way
and i know that i may have some Christian stuff here, but to the non-believers
i believe that there are still things for you here if you just look at the right places :)
Thanks for reading :)

Have a nice day :) God Bless<3

The world always feels so big, and that always makes us feel small and incapable.
As humans who feel like that, it's natural for us to become prideful, as a form of defence mechanism, for us to feel better, for us to feel able. No matter which, whether we feel lowly about ourselves, or keep ourselves with nose up high, it's really just not beneficial.

What should we do then? That's probably where humbleness can come in. Some may say that humbleness is for the proud, but not really. Humbleness which is to view ourselves truthfully without judgement, helps us to see our true worth. Being humble means that you only have this much to offer, but you can still make a difference as long as you put in effort.

As for a Christian, humbleness becomes so much more vital, a friend once told me that pride is the direct opposite of God, which is true. Whenever we have pride, we make ourselves bigger than God is in our lives, God has a plan for us, to help us reach our potential, and not letting God take control would mean to deviate from that plan.

whether it's a simple addiction, or being prejudice, or being in "love", or hating someone.
These are all different forms of obsession,
causing you to be stuck with a certain mindset,
and not looking at the full picture.

Everyone does it, whether they realize or not,
but when it's out of control, of course it isn't good,
the more deeply obsessed you get with something,
the more it twists your thoughts and your judgement,
pulling you away from the truth.

It's important to understand the difference between an obsession and passion
sometimes we get so focused in doing things we love that it becomes an obsession,
and when that happens, we stop looking at things for their true value,
and instead we end up chasing things without understanding it's worth.

so sometimes in the midst of all the chasing,
it's best to take short breaks to really reflect,
take a step back and see things in full,
not having biased ideation, and understand that
this thing you are chasing is really worth it,
and that there's a reason for you to do it.

when you do something, ask yourself, "why am i doing this?"

hahas no doodles for today :P
but any ways still, I really want to thank God for such a wonderful birthday,
it wasn't anything spectacular, but yet, it was so filled with blessings :)

1 such blessing was when it was raining in the afternoon,
being birthday boy me, i was all gloomy thinking oh great why today?
walking in the rain to the bus stop, while waiting to cross the road,
an uncle with umbrella was waiting there and there i was, all gloomy thinking
oh great, how nice, not sharing your umbrella, if it were me i would have shared!
TO MY SURPRISE
a lady offered to share her umbrella with me o.o
I was stunned
it's like how a kid goes on rampage when he doesn't receive that toy he wants and  suddenly receives it
ok maybe that doesn't really make much sense but,
at that moment really,
why was i complaining?
i have so much...
too much...
it was just a lil rain!
but yet why did i complain about someone else?
when i couldn't even appreciate what i already have?
i was comfortable,  a hoodie to cover myself, my bag was waterproof, i have a young and healthy body,
so, why? why was i so dim?
and on top of all that i was still blessed by another

God really works in ways you would never expect

Sometimes the quietest people are the ones who are the noisiest inside, always thinking and thinking of anything really.

This could really be useful sometimes like generating ideas and stuff, but it really builds up plenty of random negative thoughts, and after some time, it really just becomes too much pressure. Worse still it's self-induced. Genius huh? This would be fine if you know how to relieve you pressure via htht and stuff, but what if you don't? Easy, just get a breakdown every now and then.

Just kidding, but really, to the people who are always cheerful but sad inside, it's time to be joyful from the inside out, because there's really no need to be sad, happiness is really just a choice. Starting 1st probably from discipline, why discipline? that sounds like a sad thing right?

Not really, because, if you think about it, your mind is really quite the powerful tool that you have, but with so much power comes responsibility and that's by having a trained mind. Start by noticing all this random small thoughts, their really the root of your sufferings, cause their small, you would miss them till they become huge and that's gonna hurt. Once you learn to spot them, next is to learn to filter them and really just to counter them.

This whole thing is really just being aware and to control your thoughts. Things like taking note of your thoughts like an advice i got from my friend really would help alot, and reflect on your day too.

But anyways even after saying all this, i'm still not really there yet, cause knowing is 1 thing and doing is another. But action speaks louder than words, and if you don't start, you probably never would. Anyways to the people out there who have a noisy mind, let's do this!

Hahas this is so random but yeah :P 

Ah blah blah blah blah.... =.=
Hi world~ i'm actually being rather silly here~
okie bye for now~